Rusty Holmes echoed from I.G.

Saturday, October 12 · 7:45 PM ·  

Feeling so very grateful for this life 😄🌿🤟🏼 For my incredible community, friends & family. I don’t know where my journey will lead or what adventure is coming next but I’m so very thankful for the connections I’ve made throughout the years. Life can be rough & painful but it can also beautiful & incredible. Each day I’m learning & doing my best to grow in the process. I may not know what I’m doing half the time or more. I may fuck up. But as long as I’m expanding in the process than I feel like I’m living life right.

The other night I had a cry. I sat in the shower just feeling like I was going to suffocate or explode. I realized it’s because over the yrs I’ve placed a lot of pressures on myself & have also allowed pressures & fears of others to weigh down on me. Much of my life changed after my sister died in a car accident at the age of seventeen when I was twelve. I became afraid of the world & also felt this weight on my shoulders that now I was the only child, the only grandchild, that I had to be as perfect as I possible. This was MY thinking. That pressure was never handed to me by my family. The pressures of being constantly safe has been the greatest pressure laid on me by those who love me over years. Neither of these things are attainable. You can’t be 100% perfect, it will make you sick trying. You can’t be 100% safe, you can’t fully live.

At the end of the day I’m just going to be me & do what I love. Hike, solo travel, skydive, climb mountains & do whatever else my heart desires because this may very well be my only life & I might as well LIVE IT UP. I’m done with the pause button, it should only ever be on play. I’m also done placing myself on unattainable standards. I’m done punishing myself for things in my past that I wish I could have done differently. Areas that I see as fuck ups have been lessons. Am I going to fuck up again? Probably. I’m human. Hopefully they just won’t be the same fuck ups, they will be new ones that I can take from & learn from.

We’ve all got this one life (that we know of) why not make it count? With less pressures, less worrying & with more happiness, more love, more badass moments 🤟🏼❤️ MF YES!! @taylor_munholland ...read more

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Feeling so very grateful for this life 😄🌿🤟🏼 For my incredible community, friends & family. I don’t know where my journey will lead or what adventure is coming next but I’m so very thankful for the connections I’ve made throughout the years. Life can be rough & painful but it can also beautiful & incredible. Each day I’m learning & doing my best to grow in the process. I may not know what I’m doing half the time or more. I may fuck up. But as long as I’m expanding in the process than I feel like I’m living life right. The other night I had a cry. I sat in the shower just feeling like I was going to suffocate or explode. I realized it’s because over the yrs I’ve placed a lot of pressures on myself & have also allowed pressures & fears of others to weigh down on me. Much of my life changed after my sister died in a car accident at the age of seventeen when I was twelve. I became afraid of the world & also felt this weight on my shoulders that now I was the only child, the only grandchild, that I had to be as perfect as I possible. This was MY thinking. That pressure was never handed to me by my family. The pressures of being constantly safe has been the greatest pressure laid on me by those who love me over years. Neither of these things are attainable. You can’t be 100% perfect, it will make you sick trying. You can’t be 100% safe, you can’t fully live. At the end of the day I’m just going to be me & do what I love. Hike, solo travel, skydive, climb mountains & do whatever else my heart desires because this may very well be my only life & I might as well LIVE IT UP. I’m done with the pause button, it should only ever be on play. I’m also done placing myself on unattainable standards. I’m done punishing myself for things in my past that I wish I could have done differently. Areas that I see as fuck ups have been lessons. Am I going to fuck up again? Probably. I’m human. Hopefully they just won’t be the same fuck ups, they will be new ones that I can take from & learn from. We’ve all got this one life (that we know of) why not make it count? With less pressures, less worrying & with more happiness, more love, more badass moments 🤟🏼❤️ MF YES!! @taylor_munholland
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